Stories

Stories

This is where I share stories about my life as a healer, traveling between worlds. I use many lenses being someone who has “been through hell”, so has definitely “been there”. Becoming stronger and wiser for it I am here to connect with people on a resonant path. The intention of these stories is that whoever reads them will feel more at peace and less alone on their individual journey.

The Parts that Hide

I am deep in meditation.  There are four women surrounding me. My hands are chained. I want to get away from them. I’m terrified at the way they look and smell and talk. They have old crinkly skin and harsh raspy voices. “We have all been married and we have all been divorced and you are not going anywhere!”   When I come out of this meditation, I am completely freaked the fuck out.  Are these women the thought forms and energies that have been keeping me from fully stepping into love through partnership?   This week has been a…

The Plant Medicine Path Part 2

At the age of 12, I was placed in a back brace and asked to try and live like a normal teenager, which was next to impossible. To me, this brace represented my suppressed childhood, where everything had to be shoved in – all of the secrets, lies and abuse of my family being shoved into my tiny little body, eventually twisting me so far inside of myself that I had to have a brace to hold me up. “Sit up straight and hold in your stomach’ was the mantra of my Grandmother. What she didn’t understand was that, for…

The Plant Medicine path – Part 1

"You sick?" the shaman asks. He’s looking at me, his ancient dark eyes peering into my soul. I stutter for a second, trying to figure out how to explain, grappling with the difficulty of separating pain and sickness. "Hmmm. Well, I've got scoliosis in my spine, suppressed sexual abuse from my childhood, and I was raped when I was 14 by three young men." He looks at me for a moment, consults an inner voice, and replies, "We will give you bobinsana.” I had never heard of bobinsana, but given where I was and why I was there, I knew...

Pele’s Play

ACT I- As soon as I arrived in Hawaii I knew that I had a calling to go see the lava. The lava exists in an active volcano on the Big Island. It’s the youngest island and so all of the plants and land are relatively “new” compared to the rest of the earth. To me, the most creative place on the earth at this time is actually where the lava meets the water. Alchemy in action.   As soon as I bought my ticket the fire started calling me. That night in my dreams I saw the image of...

Maderas Life

If you would have told me two and a half years ago I would find myself living on a beach in Central America, healing rock stars and world famous yogi’s and wanderers from around the world, I would have never believed you. Coming to this community has forever changed me, in exactly the ways I had always sought: viewing myself in a different way. Letting go of the images and feelings from my childhood where I wasn’t enough, where I felt that I didn’t really matter and neither could or would ever succeed. On my path of mending a broken...